My Final Thoughts On Relationships

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I had hoped I would never have to delve into this subject matter again as long as I lived, yet due to abject stupidity beyond my wildest imagination that I see daily on social media, as well as my own decisions that have rarely made any sense, it’s time to take another look…

… at relationships.

This is sure to “trigger” people who may be in a happy relationship or marriage, or what they feel passes for “happy,” so understand, this is my own thoughts on my own experiences. I’m sure everyone’s experience is different and if yours was good, I think that’s great.

Mine have been nothing but garbage.

Admittedly, a lot of this has been my own fault. I have an amazing knack for finding the wrong woman consistently, whether she’s too far away (I don’t do long distance) or she’s too old or she’s still emotionally attached to an ex or she’s just bottom-of-the-barrel filth, I always manage to find the kind of women that are guaranteed to be an issue as time goes on.

But this isn’t just me. I see it daily. I see people rushing into marriages even though it’s obvious they shouldn’t be together in the first place. I see people staying in relationships or marriages they shouldn’t be in. And then I see people who are single and want nothing more than to be with someone in a relationship or marriage. And it all drives me absolutely crazy.

Let me first address the idiots that rush into marriage.

How stupid are you? Many years ago, my philosophy was you should know someone for at least a year before you marry them. This should give you a good cross-section of their lives in various circumstances. I now realize I stand corrected, I don’t think spending a decade with a woman would tell me everything I need to know, and most of that is my fault due to the fact that I seem so dense. But I can tell you this much: I never have been married, and I never will be. There is no way on this earth I would ever do something that I know is going to end disastrously. It would be like asking someone to drop a bowling ball on my head from three stories above, how can there be anything but a negative experience in that? I would take the bowling ball dropped on my cranium over getting married, though.

I am seeing people on social networking marrying after mere months of dating. Really? You really think that’s a good idea? You don’t see any way that this plan may backfire?

Next, let me address people who stay in marriages or relationships they shouldn’t be in. Because this is really the story of my life and one I am very well equipped to discuss.

If you are in an unhappy marriage or relationship, for the love of God, get out of it as quickly as possible. I’ve been in many, and in a few, it’s felt like I was being held prisoner or that I was drowning 24 hours a day. It was truly the worst experience of my life. But I see these idiots out there daily going through as much, if not more, misery than I did and they just stay there. They just sit there as the world burns up around them, thinking something will change.

Well, I got news for you. It’s not going to. It’s going to get worse before it gets better and chances are it will never get better. And if you are smart enough to end things, don’t turn around and go back. That doesn’t work. I don’t care what the circumstances were and I don’t care how either of you feel, that idea is 100% guaranteed to fail. Use a little common sense.

I have watched idiots get into unhappy relationships, break up, reconcile for a short period, break up again, do this over and over and then get married! And guess what? It doesn’t work out. If you can’t deal with someone you’re dating, why on earth would you marry them?

Now let me address the single folks who think they want to chain themselves to another person and spend, potentially, the rest of their lives in what basically amounts to indentured servitude.

Think about your life as a single person and then think about your life as it has been in the past when you were in a relationship or marriage. While you may feel a little lonely at times, do you miss the anger, resentment, arguments, fighting, negotiating and sacrifices you made for no other reason than just to say you were “with” someone and do things together?

Are you really incapable of doing things on your own?

I have known men, and I mean this in the most literal sense, who have married women they didn’t even like just to get out of having to do laundry and dishes. This is not an exaggeration. This is a fact. Now, you have to think about a marriage like this, in which the man clearly states that he does not love with woman he is with, but he just doesn’t want to be alone and he doesn’t want to have to do those household chores. Am I the only one who sees an issue with this?

I know everyone has to do whatever makes them happy, but from what I have read while scrolling through Facebook, there are a lot of people out there who are very unhappy.

I can say in all honesty the happiest times of my life were the times I have been single. And it’s not even close. If you put my happiness on a scale of 1-10, time that has been spent single would be a definite 10. I love my life, and I’ve loved it from my earliest memories. With the exceptions of any times I have been in a relationship or something resembling one. Those times would be lucky to rate a two on that scale. Again, I’m not exaggerating. I have known misery.

I have talked to close friends about how to verbalize this, and the only thing I can say is that there is absolutely NO WAY I would EVER even CONSIDER getting involved with anyone again under ANY circumstances. I think that hits about as close to home as I can possibly get. There’s no wiggle room in this. There’s no “well, maybe if…” scenario here. It doesn’t matter if I live in West Virginia, Illinois, Arizona, France, the moon or Mars, I would not get into a relationship again for any reason. I would literally choose death. I can’t stress that enough. NO WAY.

Again, this is strictly my own feelings on the subject. I get that some people have different experiences and I’m happy for them. They are a silent group. The ones who are miserable are the ones who are so much more vocal. It’s a shame its not the other way around.

If you’re happy and you’ve found the love of your life, that’s great. If you have found the only idiot that will have anything to do with you and you spend all your time on Facebook complaining and posting overly-dramatic status updates, find something better to do. And if you’re single and all you do is whine about being alone, you need to count your blessings and knock off the nonsense. You have it better than you realize and you need to accept that. Before it’s too late.

As I said in my opening, I hoped I would never have to address relationships or marriage again as long as I live, and after this post, I will never touch this subject matter again. Life has so much to offer me that the idea of tying it up in someone else’s life just makes NO sense to me and never has; in spite of the stupid decisions I have made in the past. I’m not changing for anyone. I’m not adjusting for anyone. I’m not making room for anyone. I’m living my best life and I’ll be damned if I’m going to end up like these idiots I see daily on social media whining and complaining. Life is too short to waste one day of it being miserable. Take it from me. I’ve been there.

Relationships are a hell unlike any other and I’m sure marriages are even worse. I’ll never know, but from the information I have gathered from those who are vocal about it, I can’t even begin to imagine how miserable it must be to be married. Of course, as I have discovered on Facebook, some people can just walk away from their marriage like it’s no big deal. I don’t know how that works or if people don’t realize they have some court sessions in their future.

In closing, let me reiterate the fact that there is absolutely no way I will ever become involved with anyone again as long as I live. If a gun were held to my head and I was given the choice of a relationship or death, I’m going to take death 100% of the time. The coldness of the grave has to be more inviting than the idea of ever being in a relationship or marriage. That just seems to me to be with worst of all possible worlds. And one I will have no part of, in any way.

Peace.

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